sanmao

work. freedom. love. is it between these three that the ambiguties and the tension lies or is it between the two of us? the two of you? between the two?

in medieval romance it is in both. it is between the two and it is between the three. romance is the absolute balancing act between the two of us, the three of those and also between the two of us and the three of those - that is to say the two of us and the world outside.

there is so much balancing to be done sometimes. perhaps i am waiting for the time when all these things balance themselves.

bamboo blind
john lewis
made it to measure
they worked
how did that feel
i work
out of machine now
but machine still
slowly unfolding myself

wall, ordinary, nothing, i try hard, i work.

wall, ordinary, something, i try hard, i work.

thought squash.
identity squash.
personality squash.
i thought orange squash was bad enough.

wall.
ordinary.
nothing.
people try hard.
work.
become like machine.